I have caught myself saying quite a few times, "If only I could go back," or my more recent favorite, "If only things were the same," but upon recent thought I have come to realize that nothing is the same. Day by day things change. With every second I am struck with more time and more knowledge and more experiences. Nothing can ever be the same.
It was in the movie Alice in Wonderland where Alice stated, "I cannot go back to yesterday because I was a different person then." I completely agree with this statement. I cannot say that I could go back an hour because within an hour my perspective can change.
With these new perspectives I realize that I would not want to go back, and although the thought of sameness can be intriguing, it is still not something I would want to go back to. I do not want to go back to naive interpretations. It is in my best interest to continue growing and never to wish that things were the same again. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, whatever reasons they may be, and I will learn from my experiences.
So let me further explain this post, I in no way wish to go back to simpler versions of myself, even to times that seem simpler. I am proud of where I stand no matter how far away I stand from another person. Pain will heal, forgiveness will be sought, forgetting will be not, and I will forever stand in the present even if I stand alone.
